It's official... my relationship is going through a crisis.
The sad fact? I don't know how to fix it.
First, I go ballistic because he keeps calling me fat and says that I used to be cuter back when I was only, what, 12? And now, he hasn't called me back after that awkward talk about him not wanting to talk to me longer today because he wants to do his thing. I don't know why it seems right and wrong for me to feel this way. Right in a sense that I honestly don't get to be with him in person everyday... wrong because he does call me and we do spend time with one another.
I have this gut feeling that because of my clinginess to him, he's pushing me away. He keeps complaining that we keep talking, he keeps telling me to go to bed, and to top it all off, he doesn't tell me he loves me or that he misses me. This is not good... not good at all... because I'm the type of girl who wants a guy to tell her how much he loves her. It doesn't have to be every single day or every single minute of the day... but he could at least tell me once in a while that he can't stop thinking about me and that he loves me no matter what.
What's more... he's not afraid of letting me go. He can go on through the day learning how to forget about me if we do break up. Every time I ask him what he would do if I was gone from his life, he'd tell me that he'd let me go. He wouldn't run after me, he wouldn't look for me, nothing.
Why does this all sound so familiar...?
Maybe he doesn't love me anymore.. maybe he's pushing me away because I'm choking him with all the love and attentiom I have for him. I try and try to not think about him and it takes a lot of effort. Maybe for him, all he's gotta do is sleep, dream, and everything is paradise to him.
Yeah... I'm losing my relationship..it's falling apart.
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